circumstances

“magkagalit pa rin ba kayo? dapat magbati na kayo igiboy. paano na yan? paano naman yung pinagsamahan niyo? ipagpapalit nyo ba yan para sa mga pride nyo? sayang naman yung pagkakaibigan niyo. biruin nyo, kung kailan magfo-fourth year eh tsaka pa kayo mag-aaway. magbati na kasi kayo…”

what a line. haha. grabeh. yan yung sinabi sa kin nung isang kaibigan ko nung isang araw, habang nagbrea-breakfast. i think that was thursday or friday morning. hehe. kakaiba rin tong taong to. magaling gumawa ng linya. haha. hindi ko inexpect na magsasalita siya sa kin ng ganun. how… very… UNEXPECTED to the point na hindi ko talaga aakalain na magsasalita siya ng ganun. partida pa yun ha, kasi wala siyang kaalam-alam except na nagaway kami. yun lang. ang galing niya rin noh.

clue? haha. hindi si jayvee, si andrew, si romar, si revee, si kevin, o kaya si warner. pero truth siya… hmmmm… lalaki… tsk tsk tsk. sino kaya to?

haha. anyways, nung sinabi niya sa kin to, medyo napag-isip isip rin naman ako kahit konti. kung sa bagay, may point naman kasi yung sinabi niya. actually, hindi lang naman siya yung nagsasabi sa kin ng ganun eh. buong room 322 ata eh nasabi na sa kin yun. kahit sina eduard, nasabi na rin nila sa kin yun. kahit yung ibang mga taga-GRHA eh nasabi na rin ata sa kin yun. haaaay. pero eto pa rin ako. matigas ang ulo. hindi nakikinig, until itong taong to ang nagsalita. grabeh, lakas ng impact! medyo namulat-mulat rin ako dun sa mga sinabi niya…

hmmm.. come to think of it, yes, i do want to get this over with. but i’m not sure if i would want to start all over again or just simply end this friendship anyhow. in a way, i’m trying to move on, to start a new life without those memories and all. in fact, i am doing a good job because for the past few days (well at least before mr. truth guy said those lines) i was doing pretty well…

but no matter how i try to evade these things, destiny tries to oppose my actions… as the days pass by, we get to see each other more and more, and somehow, the circumstances just couldn’t be controlled… is this a sign that we should start all over again?!?

certain circumstances cannot be controlled. certain things do get out of hand once in a while. there is no escape now. what’s done is done. the best thing to do now is to try to live life the fullest no matter what happens. if there would be any circumstance that we would be sitting to each other (which i’m afraid that would happen), then we might as well be civil with each other…

maybe in some other lifetime, or in the far future, we would be friends again, just as we were a few months ago…

haha. oh well. bangag na naman ako. and yes, kailangan ko ng magayos ng gamit kasi maya maya lang ay darating na ang service. crap! wah! STR! noh!!!

rain of a tyrant

haha. it took me several minutes just to figure out a title that would best suti for this “delayed” entry. haha. this entry is supposed to be an entry for yesterday. unfortunately, i really got tired from the trip so i never really got into the modd of writing. haha… xp this entry is about what happened yesterday during the COCC graduation… xp

honestly, i thought that their graduation was already over. i thought that when we were watching “a few good men” last week, the graduation was being conducted outside the auditorium. haha. silly me… xp

so anyways, CAT sarted with the same usual scene – externs going up and down, back and front to get their uniforms and find a place, usually the comfort rooms, to put on their uniforms while the dormers run (or perhaps walk) to their respective dorms and get their uniforms in their rooms upstairs. hehe. after everyone changes their clothes, they head straight to the cafeteria to buy some food or drink some water just to boost up their energy, or perhaps they just went there to refresh themselves by chit-chatting with their fellow batchmates…. same old same old…

but the moment the COCC’s positioned themselves in the field, everyone was ready to run to his or her respective platoon and fall in line properly… ALPHA-1 HUMANAY!!!

and i would run, as fast as i can, to the middle of nowhere…

haha. very funny. then everyone was in the field. with everyone staring blankly at something when the command HANDA-HARAP was given. haha. but the exciting part was just about to start. the sky was very cloudy – dark nimbus clouds with roaring sounds of thunder not seen by anyone. suddenly, it started to rain softly. but as time passed by, it poured harder and harder and harder on our heads. we weren’t suppose to react since it’s CAT time – no one speaks unless spoken to i guess. so everyone was in the field, letting themselves be wet by the rain. from the grandstand, a voice was heard saying “FALL OUT!”. the moment the COCC’S heard this, they ordered their respective platoons to fall out, and everyone came rushing to the front lobby. back then, we thought CAT was over since it was raining. but soon, two of the officers came runnning towards the front lobby, and ordered us to head straight to the fourth floor auditorium. haha. its really kinda funny because for the first few minutes, everyone was like strolling around the SHB, heading towards the auditorium. but when KJ came running to the scene, everyone ran too, for if they were overtook by KJ, they were going to be considered as late. haha…

blah blah blah. so there we are in the auditorium. then we, the whole batch, were commanded to fall in. everyone was running, trying to find his or her own platoon. yeah. haha. funny scene there. you could really see very weird faces of people. some were really worried cause they couldn’t find their platoon. others were calm, chit-chatting with their felloe batchmates. others were laughing, or with a smirk in their faces, perhaps because they really felt laughing about what was happening at that time. and yes, i was one of those people having a smirk on their faces. haha.

for the first time in my Pisay life, i never imagined the students in the 4th floor auditorium to be so organized. haha. very organized – no sound heard, or perhaps very minimal to the point that it was already negligible. haha. and then the COCC’s formed their own platoon (or whatever you call it) in front of us. then they were ordered to put the chairs aside. One of the COCC’s (can’t remember who) announced that our batch name would be BAGANI – which means warrior. some of the guys laughed. haha. don’t really know why. hehe.

blah blah blah. then we were requested, or perhaps ordered, to go straight to the field again within 5 minutes. crap! we just got to the FOURTH FLOOR for about 5 or 10 minutes and we were supposed to leave again? what the? anyways, orders are orders. so we got to the fiel as soon as possible, latter realizing that it was still raining, though not as hard as before, and the soil has literally turned itself into a liquefied solution of mud! xp. it’s really a funny scene because you could see how people were pressured that they would do anything, even to put their best rubber shoes on a field of mud, just to follow the orders. haha. and yes, i was one of them… xp.

next comes the graduation of the COCC’s. hooray. Alpha-1’s platoon commander is none other than MR. MARK DARYL SUMAGANG of 4-e! yeah! haha. looking forward for a great CAT. haha. oh well. really tired by that time, after all those running and shouting “BAGANI” and all. haha. but it was really fun, and yes, i enjoyed CAT for the first time. haha.

the moral of the story – never to use white rubber shoes during CAT period. hahahahahaha. xp

congratulations to all the people who were formerly known as COCC’s. you’re officially Batch 2007’s CAT officers. yehey! your hardwork has finally paid off! CONGRATULATIONS…

p.s. hope this message/entry saves me from the gazzilion push-ups and excercises you’re about to give us. hehe. just kidding…

is it any wonder?!?

I
I always thought that I knew
I’d always have the right to
be living in the kingdom of the good and true

It’s so long,
now I think I was wrong
and you were laughing along
And now I look a for thinking you were on…

My side,
Is it any wonder I’m tired?
Is it any wonder that I feel uptight?
Is it any wonder I don’t know what’s right?

Sometimes
it’s hard to know where I stand,
It’s hard to know where I am,
Well maybe it’s a puzzle I don’t understand

Sometimes
I get the feeling that I’m
stranded in the wrong time
where love is just a lyric in a children’s rhyme

Sometimes,
Is it any wonder I’m tired?
Is it any wonder that I feel uptight?
Is it any wonder I don’t know what’s right?

Oh, these days,
after all the misery made,
Is it any wonder that I feel afraid?
Is it any wonder that I feel betrayed?

Nothing left inside this old cathedral,
just the sad, lonely spires,
How do you make it right?

Oh, but you try,
Is it any wonder I’m tired?
Is it any wonder that I feel uptight?
Is it any wonder I don’t know what’s right?

Oh, these days,
after all the misery made,
Is it any wonder that I feel afraid?
Is it any wonder that I feel betrayed?

is it any wonder by keane. haha. grabe, ang galing galing talaga ng keane! tapos ang galing galing pa nilang gumawa ng kanta (kung sila man yung gumawa ng kantang to). hehe. basta ang point, maganda yung song at sobrang astig nugn rythm and all! haha!

bakit? ewan. wala lang. ang ganda nung meaning nung song eh. para bang… ewan. kahit ako hindi ko rin ganun maintindihan yung song. medyo blur yung meaning nung song. kakaiba. parang ang point siguro eh, may dalawang taong nag-away, at ayun, medyo nagkakalabuan sila. o kaya naman, may nangyaring hindi inaasahan. tapos sinisisi nug isa dun sa isa kasi pinabayaan lang niyang mangyari yun. kaya ayun, na-trauma siya. haha.

anyhow, it’s a really nice song. and yes, its more or less the perfect song to describe my situation long ago. but now, it seems that there would be a change of heart (huh?). something triggered me, though up to now, i’m still not sure if this so-called change of heart is for the good, or for the bad. haha… kalabuan ng mundo…

xp…

lugigi is full of adepose nowadays… xp

walang magawa

andami nang nangyari

humanities week – haha. nakakaaliw tong week na to kasi humataw talaga yung section namin! haha! go go go TRUTH! 1st sa laro ng lahi! 3rd sa pinoy! 3rd sa KKKwiz! etc… at least meron na kaming maipagmamalaki sa mundo, even though hindi siya ganun kalaki… haha… anyway…

ACET – haha. ACET kaninang umaga. well, one word to describe it would be the word WEIRD! ewan ko. naweirdohan ako dun sa test. kakaiba. parang ewan. hindi ko maintindihan. haha. word of wisdom sa mga kukuha – WAG NA MAG-ARAL KASI WALANG SENSE PAG NAG-ARAL… haha. labo

and many more – back to reality tayo ngayon. andami-daming mga requirements at long tests at homeworks at kung ano ano pa. ewan ko ba! wah!